A Mother's Love

Only now do I understand the phrase "A face only a mother could love." And now I see how the mother of bad or bratty kids can be so patient and love them so much. I think a bond formed the second I heard her cry after the delivery. And it seems like every minute- every time I see her, nurse her, hold her, change her, or anything else it grows stronger. I never imagined I would love her so much. In fact, I think I was almost afraid I wouldn't love her as much as I should or I wouldn't be a good enough mom. In my eyes, she is the most beautiful, sweet, and perfect thing I could ever imagine. I'm amazed that Chris and I created her and that she has been growing inside me this entire time. I feel so blessed that Heavenly Father chose me to be her mother and hope that I can be a wonderful mother and give her the best possible life.

I LOVE being a mom! I hadn't imagined I would love it so much. I love not working and would be more than happy to be a stay at home mom. I know that won't happen, but part time sure would be nice! I can't stand the thought of someone else taking care of her if we had to have a babysitter a couple of days a week. Despite all of the craziness trying to finish getting everything ready for Keira and for Chris' mom to stay with us for a month, in general this is the happiest and least stressed out I've ever been. Being a mom is not nearly as hard as I thought. And if we didn't have so many projects we were trying to finish up, it would be even easier.

I love touching her, smelling her, looking at all of her cute little faces, nursing her, changing her, rocking her, bathing her, holding her, kissing her, burping her, and I could just stare admiringly at her for hours. I thought I would have so much time to read while I'm nursing, but I find myself admiring and touching her. I love Keira more than words can describe! She is my pride and joy, besides Chris. I am as happy as can be with my wonderful husband and daughter! Life couldn't be better!